I very beautiful woman of God has gone to be with Jesus today and the world is a much darker place.

Her name is Jane and she was a bright shining light in a very dark world. I met her when I was in the UK and I was her Officer for a year. She was a simple girl, but her love for others was rich and her love for God was incredibly deep. She taught me how to love God even more and how to just sing my praises to him without shame.

She was so kindhearted and sweet, always ready with a smile, and a hug! She would kneel at the mercy seat even though it hurt her fragile knees, she would raise her hands in praise and worship God with all she had.

She would tell us how God would visit her at night and tell her how much he loved her and how proud he is was of her...and now she is safe in his embrace.

She will be deeply, deeply missed by all who knew her....

There is now a huge gap in her families life and they need many, many prayers. Please hold them in your prayers tonight....

So I have had to adjust my heart a little in the last few days....this last year and especially these last few months have been full of drama and planning and all kinds of events to look forward too....not a lot of time to really think about it all or to process all of it...

Well now life has kind of just stopped and it is pretty drama free, and not too many events to look forward too...now it is a matter of just getting on with everyday life and ministry and I have to admit it is pretty hard...

I find myself grieving for things that I have not had a chance to really think about until now...I am missing friends in the UK, places in the UK, I am missing the time I spent with my parents and I am even missing India and the people I met...

I am also finding it hard to get back into the 614 ministry..it has taken me a few days to get back into the swing of things and to remember exactly why I wanted this appointment in the first place...I am getting there though..

Life is not about the mountaintop experiences, it is about all those times in between....that is where you really live life...so for now I am learning to live...live in a drama/ special event free / move free world....

 

I am not sure what that will look like but I am sure I will begin to like it very soon

So finally I am back home and back to the real world...such sadness...

These last two weeks have been absolutley amazing....just wonderful...full of friends, family, and plenty of fun...

It all started with our journey to Georgia to begin our wedding preparations and it was so nice to hang out with Cristina and just be a part of her life again, I have missed her... and even though we were doing last minute wedding preps it was actually really relaxing and a great time of rest for us...

Then the wedding begins and Ashish and I cannot believe how people have gathered around us and helped us with everything, decorating, cooking, cleaning, making bouquets, folding programs, going to the airport and sending prayers our way...it was amazing and everything went off without a hitch..

My wedding in the US was full of my fave people and it was incredibly fun and relaxing and I believe it was full of God..it was everything I had wanted my wedding to be and I believe that everyone had a great time....I realized all my worries were for nothing...it truly was a weekend of fun and fellowship with friends...AMAZING..

To top it all off some amazing friends booked us a hotel room and filled it with goodies...what a blessing....

We then headed off to India for our honeymoon/ mission trip/ family reunion...haha....and this was another amazing time for us. From the moment we got off the plane in India I felt loved and I fell in love with my new family and the country of India...

It is hard to describe India and to describe why I love it so, I think I need more time to process it all...but I did fall in love with the people and the country and know that I will be back..

I met new family members that are not linked by blood, but by experience and love and that made it even more amazing... and they treated me with such kindness and love..it was at times overwhelming... but in a nice way...

The city of mumbai was crazy and ugly, yet also full of beauty...the traffic is crazy and there are no rules, the buildings are covered in dirt and grime, there is trash all over the streets...but in the midst of that there is an atmosphere of love and kindness and joy...

At times I was overwhelmed with the heat, the poverty, the language barrier and I just wanted to be in a cool room by myself and not have to try and speak another word, but other times I was overwhelmed with how giving people were, with the smiles that filled the faces of those that lived on the streets, the wedding gifts we got from people who had nothing, but blessed us with so much, the family like atmosphere in every house we went too...

I remember just sitting amongst my new family and thinking how blessed I am to belong to another family and another country...how great it is going to be to be able to teach my children about their Indian heritage and to introduce them to this great country...

So now I am home, and trying to process all that has happened these last few weeks..it has been amazing and I am sooooo happy.....I love my husband, i love my friends and family from all around this world and i cannot wait to start my life with Ashish....